Currently Playing Meddle By Pink Floyd see related

- San Tropez -

This will be my final xanga entry, probably forever. I officially have my own place up at school. I think it'll be good to get out of the dorms, sure I'll miss some of the folks on the floor O' 8, but I need solitude and privacy. Although I must say that if I didn't meet and hang out with Chris, I probably wouldn't of made it through the year.

As for the final entry of xnaga, well...I just don't care any more for it. Nor do I care for a lot of things any more. It's scary actually. I am not right anymore, not that I have ever really been right, but I need something. I don't know what, maybe help, maybe something else, I don't know, nor how to obtain it. I seem to have a lot more angry, rage and agressive-depressive feelings, and yet I seem to control iot more than previous years. I was a lot happier in the past and yet seemed to be in worse condition and showed it a lot more, but now I feel worse and yet, seem to not show it as much. I'm just not happy, nor do things that should or used to make me happy do anymore, I just have no care for almost anything.

NBS means shit to me now. After seeing the amount of money one must put into it and the fact that I got absolutely nothing out of it for the year, I hate it. The people, conventions and those running it are bullshit. The only thing I got out of Hollywood was an awesome spring break and more open eyes. It was pretty much a waste of my time, effort and money. I put a lot it into NBS, especially for the conventions and my job on the exect board, whihc was the high school video festival. However, after everything I did to put that together pretty much on my own, I didn't feel any appreciation and those who did show it, well frankly I can't believe any thing they say, so it doesn't mean shit. As for MUTV, similar, I have very little care after what has happend in the past, but I will be doing my job, b/c as much as I may hate something, if it needs to be done, it'll get done. However, I doubt I will be doing certain activities involving certain people, b/c after the event of Buzzfest and everything I did for that, I felt almost no appreciation from anyone. And like I have said, "Appreciation Only Goes As Far As The Dedication Behind It." But oh well, more bullshit that make me hate more things and more people I guess. Not much I can do, that's how the system works.

I used to care very deeply aboot honesty, trust and loyalty, however coming to find that the majority of the world deserves to be put through their worst fears and torchures, I no longer have the care of, others first, then myself. That mentality no longer really exists with me. Don't get me wrong I know who is honest, who I can trust and who is loyal, and at the same time know who is 2-faced, I can't trust and isn't loyal. I seem to be more concentrated on control, choice and discipline. I have a lot of things that need to be done for me and by me and only I can do them. I have lost the passion for what I love, the passion for what I desire. I am more full of hate, pain, angry and torment to the point where I actually concidered help, in the "professional" field. However, that won't happend, b/c I hate them and don't trust them and think it's a waste of my fucking time and money, but I do know their purpose. It's talking to a stranger who will listen(at the cost of everything you own) and not judge. See when you tells friends something, they judge, or can let out your words to ears who shouldn't be hearing them, but with the Doctor of Coo-Coonomics, he won't judge,  or at least you won't have to face em in an everyday occurance like a friend. I do not know what I need or what will help me, but vengance has never tasted sweeter and it seems the passions I have now are with other aspects, which may not be for the best, but with control and discipline, I think I can help, so if I do release, it will be of my choice, and whatever happends, will be of mine own nature and regrets shall not be had, for I rarely if ever, regret anything, b/c as far as I see it, you shouldn't regret something you have done, b/c it was your choice to do it, but be prepared to suffer whatever fate comes with that choice.

Those words shall be repeated as my final words. So to all those who cared enough to bitch and complain for updates, here it is, the final one. And of course, Mr. Annonymous, I thank you, you've always been the #1 xanganite of mine. I may be done with xanga, but I will continueish myspace, for as long as that desire lasts, which well, it's not my top priority, so don't expect anything fancy. Caw-Caw ala Dust

"You shouldn't regret something you have done, b/c it was your choice to do it, but be prepared to suffer whatever fate comes with that choice." 

                                                 ~The Drifter ala Doleo~

Currently Playing The Central Park Concert By Dave Matthews Band see related

- Don't Drink The Water -

So, once agian The Drifter is back with an update, that is well aboot a month or so late - caw-caw and suck it up. I loved Hollywood, the absolute best week of my life. Colin Mockery, That Amerosa Bitch from the Apprentice, John Stamose, Marc Fucking Summers and the myth, the legand, the immortal, Hulk Hogan. Yes, I Joe Cox have met and shook hands with a wreslting icon, which all who know me, know that is a major kcik ass thang for me. I must say, that I had a fucking blast with a select few individuals. In fact I had a better time meeting new people and having an awesome time with them as oppose to hanging with being I once thought of as friends. I spent the majority of the time with 2 people... Nick "Crazy Limbs" Bierzonski and The Metalhead Drew Tyson. I am glad both ended up coming, especially Drew, he and I have formed a closer friendship in Hollywood, which is funny b/c Hollywood, kind of drfited my freindship with a lot of folks, oh well, fuck em. The pool and Hot tub were sweet, when there wasn't 50 or so people crowding it. In my personal opinion the Hilton fucking sucks. They provide you with nothing at all and everything you have to buy or walk a mile or so to(seemingly) or spend more money than anyone who goes to a school in the middle of Amish Ville and from The Lane has. On a major plus side, I won a national award for an one-the-scene production, where all they sadi was, "The Escape" and we had to go and do the rest. It was awesome, and with, myself, Joe I, Meg W, Miguel and Gemma, We won and that kicked ass. I have worked my ass of and finally I recieved a little bit of recognition for it. Even if it was meaningless to all else, I am proud as all hell of myself and the hard work I have done in my life. If you think otherwise, Fuck Off.

Well, I am done with talkign aboot Hollywood, all I know is quarters is awesome and The Wielman ala Andrew Wieler hates me for having a nack at the game and being a natural with my tirck shots and consectutive making of it. Either way, The Cap't and I definately left a mark in Hollywood and did Cherry Vodka. I in a different state of mind pretty much the entire time and now that I think aboot it, I SLEPT IN A FREAKIN' CLOSET the majority fo the time, so of course, I won an NBS Award here for "Most Likely To Come Out Of The Closet"... Cute. But all in all, I had one of the most amazing weeks of my life in Hollywood. And Team Heart will forever own the Sand Volleyball Court and I will be the server of servers. Caw-Caw. P.S. too many 2-Faced people who are full of shit in of of themselves, So to The Wielman, Crazy Limbs and The Tysonator, I thank you for an amazing week in Hollywood. And for those who I was able to chill with and enjoy myself with, The Brandon, Mikey( Today, I Saw My Nipples - HaHa), Hollz McDrunk and The Heeter Beater(I have no idea aboot that one, so just don't ask..HaHa) George, is this advil or one of mine? Damn Kids... and of coruse E to the B, Eric Brobst and the Future Don Won himself, Miguel. Caw-Caw. Team Drunk, you are hilarious and it was awesome knocking back refreshments and for the majority of the rest. Just don't talk to me on a personal level ever again, strictly business-like needs. Good.

There Hollywood is updated, soon enough I will be back with true friends and people who live in reality. "Remember Your Reality When You Wake Up From This Dream" - Dust All - Caw-Caw

Currently Playing Swagger By Flogging Molly see related

- Devil's Dance Floor

Wow, it's felt like a life time and well, fuck it, oh well, y'all can deal with it. Hmm, well this semester thus far has been a bitch. Speaking of... Caw-Caw, who loves their crack whore? haha. Kids... Well, I am sure, I have a lot of crap and otherwise useless bullshit to talk of and update for the obsessed who have a dire need for The Drifter to update.

TYO - It's slowly going downhill, which sucks, b/c I love this show, Sums and I created it last year during A/V class and developed into an amazing show that rocked out, but with the lack of support and the lack of interest from this organization, which frankly, I understand why there isn't any. So, TYO is only going to last for a short time frame I fear, damn this bullshit. Fucking Heirarchy... and The Rest of the Organization.

Bad Transsition - The radio show, founded by Andrew and Roger, now a power trio with myself included has done nothing but grow and it's an amazing time. Everyone should listen in to the show from 7-10pm every Sunday Nite, go to WIXQ.com to listen. We had one of the best shows last Sunday for multiple reasons, mainly I had a good time, killing Roger so to speak with insults and the downsizing of him and his love for J-Rock ala J-Pop, aka Japanese music, which well sucks!!! But do listen in, it's an awesome time, for all. Caw-Caw p.s. Gotsta Love Them Elevators-  Wait What?

Only a few more days til' The Drifter hits Hollywood. This is going to be an amazing trip, over a week in Hollywood, druing Spring Break - Caw-Caw to the Maxx, yeah double 'x'. There is a down-side however, and that would be, that I don't get to see any of my friends over the break of spring, except for a select few Friday Nite, none other than Remy and Sir Thomas, but wait... Der's Morre. Nick B, from the Ville, will eb staying overnite at my place, so I will be showing him, how we do it on The Lane. Friday Nite, it's gonna be freakin' crazy. I just can't wait til' I take over Hollywood, and hell I will be on the Price is Right, which is pretty cool, hopefully I get on and win something hot like something, that is hot... and show the west coast how we do it on the East Side, Nigga.

Overall, I feel dead. This semester is not what I hoped for and an adjustment, I need this vacation, I need to see friends, and family. And my baby, ooh how I miss my 93' Red Chevy Berretta. I hear it's climbing up the ladder to it's death bed, but damn it, not before I give it one last drive. The work just seems to keep piling on, and I am breaking down, but I have been in worse situations before, so I am sure I will be fine... All In Due Time...

Glen, Chris and I rought back an old school game we havn't played in a looong ass while.... Dum dum dum du dum du du du dum dum du dum... RISK. I was destroyed then slowly began to die and fade as them bastards openly allied agaisnt me. Bastards....

I need a place to live next year, I thought I was going to live withPedro in 1701, but that was bullshit and apparently, wouldn't work, so with the thought of me livign there in mind, I didn't put a deposit on the dorms, which means, I now need to find me a place, woo-hoo. I don't think it'll be all that bad, I am sure I'll find me a home, otherwise, Dust to The Ville.

Alright that's good enough for me, I updated and damn it, that is pretty freakin' impressive, so all those who waited... sucks. Dust..

P.S. 454band.com - check out the band 454, they are fucking amazing and know how to have a damn good time. My main man Remy is the bassist, and trust me, this is a band well worth going to see, just check out the site, listen to some of their songs and gather all the info you need. Caw-Caw.

Currently Playing American Idiot By Green Day see related

- Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

Well, it has sure been a while since The Drifter has updated this here site, so here ya go...

Break of Winter - I spent most of the time with two of my best friends, that of Sir Thomas and Remy. We basically relaxed, jammed out and just had a fucking blast enjoying ourselves with all we did, and you best believe that we know how to have a great fucking time - Caw-Caw. But I did have such an awesome time, so I send out thank yous to the both of you.

I saw a good amount of family, most of them in fact on both sides, which is good, I love spending time wth family and seeing them. Especially The Cuz, Craig, and Kevin. My closestest cuz's. But I love seeing them all. We did the whole polyanna thing at my aunts on my moms side as we do every year and it was alright. Things change as you grow older and see things from a different perspective and can remember viewing this time from a childs eyes. Smile. We had a gathering at my other aunt's on my dad's side the day after christmas, which was cool. I got to see my cuz Pam, who I am also close with, but the best part was having The Cuz and Pat in a tag team match on their new trampoline with Danny on my side, but due to Danny accidentally hurting me, I ended up hittin' em, with a finishing move and letting him get pinned, We may have lost, but I got my point across, isn't that more important. There is nothing wrong with losing, as long as your opponent knows your point....???

Mass ala Christ - Not too bad A'Tall. I got me a Texas Hold Em' Table and set, which rocks, but nothing beats, the greatest gift of all fucking time.... A Portable Record Player with built in speakers... come on! That is just the most amazingly kick ass gift to give. And then me and my Pops went thru his old record collection and now I  have many records up at The Ville to go along with my record player. It is hella sweet. Thank You Momma Dukes and Pops, I couldn't of asked for n e thing better and since I havn't given u a real list nor really told you what I wanted in years, it truly is.

New Years - Amazing time, with Sir Thomas and Jeff  and even The Rents, which was pretty cool and of course the killing of The Cap't, We sailed, we dueled and in the end, I came out on top. However in our 5 person Texas Hold Em' game, Momma Dukes, who knows the least came out on top, mainly because of luck since most of us were tired and wanted to pass out, or relax at least. The rents went to sleep. We stayed up til' some odd itme in the morning, like 6-7am, which was amaizng concidering the state of mind we were in. But it was an amazing nite none the less.

Overall break was decent, but too short. However I did get to spend time with my little nephew Ryan, which was just a blast in and of itself. But the best, was when The Drifter, The Cuz, Sharon Hill Sean, and Princess Sara along with my sisters, Kimbo to the Kann and Jester and a bunch of their friends for some Midnite til like 2:30am bowling, and we all know I love me some bowling..."Fuck It, Let's Go Bowling." Man I miss being home.

Take It Easy.. And Remember, It Can't Rain All The Time; Just Get Used To Unexpected Showers. Live Life To It's Fullest, No Regrets, Never Miss An Oppurtunity, And Live With Open Ears, Eyes And Mind, But Beaware Of 2-Faced Individuals Who Are Too Busy Worry What Others Think Aboot Them And Attmepting To Impress Them Rather Than Be Themselves.

School is bak....

I miss my old roomy and the new one is an adjustment, I guess I am just used to Glen and knowing how things are run and how things are run, plus he became one of if not, the best friend I have here at school and I basically care not for the mass majority of the rest of them here, Fuck Off. My classes are rather decent I reckons...

Symphonic Music seems like it will be a decent class, the professor is a rather kick ass guy, so that's cool. TV 2 I was able to add which was awesome because I can further my knowledge of field prodcution as a sophomore, which I am hoping shall help me out in the future. I also have Communicology and the Discourse of War with Catt, meaning I need to know my shit, but I believe I'll be fine, I never had to study before, so I honestly don't know how, was never taught and I am not a memorizer, so that doesn't help, but I have been improving, so all should be good. I end in Still Photo which should be an awesome time for me seeing how I love it. So this semester ought to be good. Not to mention the movie Gumshoe, Nick, Craig and I are doing and being Special Projects Coodinator for NBS. So I do have a load of work to do for that, but I think I can handle it, it just sucks that I have to basically started from scratch, since the previous perosn didn't really leav eme with much help.

 Oh well, I guess this will be another road, The Drifter walks alone down, like many. I aks for none, and care not for many, but all are welcomed. In Life, You Need Do Nothing But Be Yourself.

Currently Playing 40 Oz. to Freedom By Sublime see related

- What I Got - - - - -

We all know who I am. Or at least anyone who reads this, most likely has a general idea of who I am, however too many people pre-suppose and assume, like the asses they are, as if they actually know me. There is almost no ones who truly knows me. I am a person who keeps a lot to themself and yet at the same time and very open and opinionated and that throws people off. They can't figure me out and it bothers them. Maybe you should all stop trying to figure me out an just enjoy what you cana nd get what you can out of life. Too often do we wait in attempt to fully know and understand someone before we pursue anything, whether it be a freindship or relationship, or lack there of, which is a possibility. Why must people look down on others without good reason or hell reason at all? I am not a liked man in certain places with certain groups. I have come to accept I am not a liked man, I never really have been with certain groups..ever. But I keep going, b/c I don't need them. I have what I need, where I need them. I have some of the best friends, at home, where it counts and in the end, where I always end up... I love my home, I hate the area true, but it's me. I Love The Lane. There is just something aboot it, that I just can't let go, which probably comes from the fact that I was born and raised there. But there are those who 100% truly matter to me, always there in the end and for that I love them.

Let me start with someone, to which if you know me and don't know this person, then you don't truly know me. This is my heart, my blood. The kid to which I would give or take a bullet for.. The Cuz. He has been thru soo fucking much shit in his life and yet, still I see him smile, always with a bookbag on his back, but a smile none the less. I don't think I would be alive if it wasn't for this kid. We have drfited in recent years, but when we are together, there is no greater feeling of closeness between two people. I love you cuz.

Another blood like friend, who is also like a brother, not only to me, but to the fam all together and also if you don't know this kid or associate him with me, then you don't know me as well as you think. Sir Thomas. I love this kid, with everything I can. He is my longest running close friend, who is not offical blood. Since aboot 1st grade, down at the park, we were untouchable. And now as we grow, we have only become closer and stronger as a friendship then ever before. I would do n e thing for him and he for I. Let your voice be heard Sir Thomas, leave your mark on the world as you have on I. Let the society live on.

Remy. What more needs to be said aboot this fucker? Who else is up with the sickminded thoughts and overall assholeness like I, then Remy himself.  All 36 1/2 lbs of pure bones, brains and balls on this kid. He is the brother you can fight with and let out agression with, and then just get trashed, jam out and everything becomes ok. Hell, even minus the being of trashed, everything becomes ok, just getting trashed is a great bonus. He has proven true friendship to me, and I beleive I've proven it to him. If he ever needs me I am here and I know if I ever need him, where he is. And of course with that, goes his family. I love em', for they have brought me in as if I am one of their own. They truly are family to me. I will get back to families ala friends later.

My right hand man in the art of thievary. The bringer of evil, the jew-hatin', spawn of satan, holy holocaust himself. Hitler aka Hitz aka Adam. Either way, he's my bro. Since comign back to college this semester, we havn't had much time to hang out, with both of us being busy as all hell, or having alternate plans, previously arranged, hav enot been able to hang out as much as desired. But The Drifter will be home soon enough and the Scooter Ridin', Berretta Drivin', Stealin' and Wheelin', Ooh La La Feelin', Of The Sweetness That Is Hitler And Drifter Will Once More Rain Down On All Emo Kids. Caw-Mother-Fucking-Caw. 

Someone who has become a close ass friend to me in recent years, but was there for most of my life.. Mr. Anonymous himself... Sharon Hill Sean. This Eagle loving Sharon Hill kid just simply fucking rocks. So many great times, too many to count. From sleepover, all-nites with watching "bad tv" to all the camping trips, to skiing, to hockey and all that are too come, but none more famous then they one with the quote... "Fuck It, Let's Go Bowling" - I am glad we have became closer my friend and hope that it shall only continue.

When it comes to girls, I havn't had all that many one who have been realy close and consistant. A lot of them come and go, or are always there, but never really became or at least havn't yet became, really close friend. I mean I know there are a decent amount who if I need them they are thetre. But there are only a few who are there for me now, always. In the past, it has been my cuz Pam who has been there for me and  I for her. It's just shows you that even 2, completely opposite individuals can be close with each other, if the oppurtunity is given. My cuz Jackie, we, along with my cousin Kevin, have established, not only the 3 Muskateers but the Drunkin' Bastards as our childhood group name. We are all 3 weeks apart in age and it all just clicked. But anyway, back to ladies. some ex's or semi-ex's I still talk to and am reaquainting a friendship with, mildly. Jax and have been talking more, I saw her over last break at the high school homecoming, I went to, to see me sis Jen in. Heather and I still talk, and hopefulyl we can talk more and reestablish a closer friendship of sort. However there has been no time for us to really talk to each other and such. There hasn't been time for Nadine and I to talk either. We will occasionally leave messages back and forth, but nothing too perosnal...in time I hopes. There has been one lady who has been always there, despite distance, which has always been between us. That would be Sara aka The Dancin' Queen, or Princess Sara, either way, she has always been there for me as a friend and I love ehr for that. She means alot too me, she really does. And it is awesome to know that we have known each other for a few years and have still maintained a close friendship. She is my best lady friend, I guess you would say. Best friend that's a girl? Either way, she rocks.

All those who mean something to me, shall see me, b/c they way I see it, and how I feel others should is simply, Thinking of what you have or could have now, and then think of the future, what parts of your present day life do you want in your future. Find them and grasp on to it all, and never let it go. There will be some things, that you want to have, but you know by the choice of they, or it, or nature itself, will not be there with you. Let it go. As hard as it may seem or be. Let it go, for life goes on and those that turly mean something will be there with you in the future. I know, The Cuz, Sir Thomas, Remy, Hitz and Sharon Hill Sean and Sara, will be there in my life and I love all of them and they know it. I can only hope for some to be there too and if not, oh well, their choice.

Families: Well there are a few families that have been there, above and beyond for me. I will be saving the best for last of course...

I have already mentioned the family of Remy, but once again, they mean so much to me, they truly are like family to me and if I even need sonmething, or somewhere to go, I know where I can go. I love them as fi they were truly my own family.

For the shore, there lies in Erma, The Playfords and a Carother - haha.Ohh glass in the streets, litterally in streets, not on, or around, but in. Sad really... But they have taken me in just as well and have been there for me. They have helped me out multiple times and I have tried to do my best to make up for it with what I can. I do love that family and it sucks that I havn't had a chance to see them in a long while, it truly has eben too long, Iplan over break to make at least one visit to the shore to see them... Not to mention there is a bed, reheated pizza, and a tv with Lingo on that has my name all over it.

Coyle Clan - The Coyle's, whcih is the family of The Cuz have also been there for me always. They truly treat me as if I were one fo they own, they always have and I love them for it. I never had brothers, but these guys definately were brothers to me. I love them so.

The Flynn - Kathy has been such an amazing neighbor, she puts up with a lot of shit with things, but she keeps on rollings. Now true she is an Eagles fan, but hell, let's not hold that totally against her. she relly is amazing. She has always looked out for me like a son, I don't think you could of asked for a better neighbor to be stuck with for soo many years than her. And he kids, well they are also like my little bro's and sis's. And that means I take care fo em and look out for em and make sure they, especially that punk JC, haha, to make sure he is keeping his head straight. John, well that is just self-explanitory if ya know who I mean. True Irish is all I need to say.

Finally, my own family. I love them soo fucking much. I do. I know I have not always been there, but I am there whenever I am needed and most of the time when I am not. And I know they are there for me. I am loving this age, it has soo much stress and bullshit to it, but it is also when true bonds are met. I am closer than ever with family, one in particular my cousin Craig. He is so awesome, and we have so much in common, oh sure there are differences, mainly Eagle vs Cowboys and Stewart vs Gordon, but still, I feel so much closer to him than ever before, and even growing up we were close. It's a great feeling to have, the reassurance of truth.We have all been thru soo much and my parents, I mean some of the shit, I know they have been thru and to keep on going with all the motivation they have just to see their children succeed and have a better life than they. I mean isn't that was this is all aboot, making sure the children have a better life than the parents? We need to establish a strong future in order to keep these creatures known as human alive. After dealing with so much to fully bring you back into the light and accepting it all and putting the past behidn them. Wow, how heartfelt and truly a gift, I don't know if I could be as forgiving.

I know my mother and I have not always seen eye to eye, on well, a lot of issues. I think and feel a lot different than her on many different levels, but I still know much has been done for me from her. I love her so much and she tries so hard and deals with so much shit. Life has not been the easiest and the fact that she has sacrificed so much for us kids as well as other family memeber and friends. It's astonashing at what she is capable of doing when it needs to be done, and even when it doesn't she can and will do it. I love you mom. My pops. He and eye growing up had our differences as well, he wanted me to do things and I just didn't like them or care for them. Baseball was a huge one. However in the last 6 or so years, since entering high school, he and I have bonded a lot more and formed an amazing father-son, relatinoship. He has just as well sacrificed soo fucking much for this family and I know he has. Forever Shall There Be Pink Floyd and Lynyrd Skynyrd. Free Bird. I Love Ya Pops. I am close with my family and feel bad for those who aren't. It really is one of the those true feelings that you never want to let go, when you know The Strong Family Bond is there. My sisters are all soo amazing, they have soo much care, passion and love, but the luck is just not there. I mean my oldest sis has been through soo much and yet still is able to maintain a smile on her face and she has soo much care for her child. She deserves a lot more than the shit she has been thru. Live and learn Sam - I love you and will always be there for you, no matter what comes between a family, nothing should ever break them apart, for that is what a family is, The Strongest Bond Possible, Never To Be Broken. As for the twins, well Kim and Jen are only 17 and probably making more money, then I am - man, that sucks, but it is great for them. I know in my future, I will be fine, I don't worry too much aboot it, but theirs I do. That's just the way I am, I would rather make sure they are successful over myself. They are doing great and I love that they are able to enjoy the world and what it has to offer. Live it up you 2, while the time is here. Love all you can and take nothing for granite, especially family and friends. And of course The babies, Shiloh and Ryan. I love my little boys. Not only the puppy ala Shiloh who well come on, he is the cutest, most kick ass dog...ever. And Ryan, well my lil' Dude just rocks out like there is no tomorrow, and when he smiles or laugh, man, that makes it all worth it. Makes everything worth it. There is nothing more innocent than a child's laughter.

I am here on earth for a time in which no one will ever know. Will I be alive tomorrow, I do not know. And that chance of death is what keeps me alive and keeps me moving to get what I can done while I can. Try new things, date someone you wouldn't expect. Take the chances you fear. Don't listen to others, only to yourself. I have no care for those who are too influence by others. They have no use in my life and they shouldn't be trusted in any position or as a person. Now all who read this, need to remember, that this is all my opinion, and if you don't like it. Suck It Up or just don't read it. Too often do people tell they want to hear the truth and yet deny it when it is told. I fear not the truth, let me have it. But how much can another be trusted who will act friendly and caring to your face and yet behind your back, they let it be known of how they truly feel? I trust very few people and this is a main reason, b/c most of those who have stated their position with me, were false aboot it. Why? If there is a problem, why not let it be known, so it can be solved or dealt with or at least acknowledged. Why hide what will eventually be figured out and only cause problems? I don't need people who are 2-Faced like that, and in fact, I won't have them in my life as any true factor. I See The True Colors Behind Your Eyes. Despite what people may beleive, I know a lot more than I present, aboot life and aboot my surroundings. I am aware of the whispers in the wind. I will not let anyone break me down. The only perosn who will break me down is that of myself. No Matter What Is Thrown At Me, This Soldier Never Bows Down... I Will Move On, Stronger Than You. Dust To All.